Hurt, or Get Hurt..

Urgh...
I feel totally screwed up for putting my best friend through crap..
i don't know what the hell on earth i did to have caused him so much pain...
in the end, i have no one to blame but myself...
Come to think of it...What a shadow of my past used to tell me that i ignored before does make sense now...

Friendship DOES and HAS to have boundaries..

i mean come on la stupid bimbo!
which guy FRIEND says I love you before putting down!
which guy FRIEND would hang on the phone with you till late into the night!
which guy FRIEND would give up anything to come see you!

URGH! its my fault!!!
i freakin gave him hope!!!
I Led him on!!!
ITS MY FAULT!!!!!

i just can't force myself to like him....cos i know that i'd hurt him...
i stop myself cos i know that he deserves better...
he just doesn't realise it....

Cos its either he gets hurt.....or i get hurt....for bein with someone i dont wanna be with....