Before it hurts some more....

10.42pm*the without himness feelin again*

How annoying issit when you see almost everyone around you bein attatched?
Gosh i bless them so much, but deep down its like i know to a certain extent i envy them cos they've got that special someone there for them.....
There's really NO use hanging on,
cos there's really know way what i expect to happen WILL happen...

so why bother holding on?

At times like this i wonder why karma loves to play such sick games...i don't mean to hurt anyone... but what's karma trying to make me do then?

i see couples holding hands and walking along the pavements after a rainy day, i see couples lying on each others shoulders in the bus,
i see him
and i see her....
the love thats so evident in both their eyes....
the love that makes it feel that that moment could last a lifetime.....

Gosh i want that so bad...with someone who's worthy of my love...
cos it hurts, to fall deeper and deeper, over and over again into that bottomless pit....

Get Back

*Rainy Sunday Afternoon*Sad* =(

and to think that a girl would have learnt a really good lesson after rushing into her previous relationship...urgh....
but deep inside im really wishing, i could go back to that day, not too long ago(i mean, seriously), when i lay down on your lap on that cold cement floor, as you sang ever so softly...

i could stay awake
just to hear you breathing
watch you smile while you are sleepin
while your far away and dreamin

i could spend my life
in this sweet surrender
i could stay lost in this moment forever

then you bent over and planted a kiss on my forehead, and cheek.....

every moment spent with you is a moment i treasure..

then you look into my eyes, makin me thank God that i had found someone like you...

I didn't wanna close my eyes,
Didn't wanna fall asleep
Cos i'd miss you baby
and i didn't wanna miss a thing...
Cos even when i'd dream of you
the sweetest dream would never do...
i'd still miss you baby
and i didn't wanna miss a thing...

even though you were right there, so close, i still felt like i missed you....
and now that i know that your no longer there
imagine how much i miss you...
how much i wish to see you...
how much i wish i could hear your voice again
how much i wish i could stay in your arms
or how much i wish i could go back to that day, when i lay on your lap....

The rain may be beautiful on its own,
but getting drenched in it with you by my side gave it a whole new meaning...
To mean enough to make me forget the last time i was in it with someone i thought i loved...

it really was too good to last wasn't it...
so now i know,
i'll never feel your lips pressed up against mine again
i'll never be able to admire your beautiful smile ever again
but hey, deep inside i'll keep hoping and i'll keep praying..
cos this time it IS different
cos this time, i dare say out....

I can love you more....